My Journey...

2011-10-20T09:33:00.000-07:00

23yearsoldandcounting!

My awesome friends created a blog to give me their best wishes! Sweetness to the max.

Check it out, if anyone out there still keepintouch with my blog. haha.

bneboy.blogspot.com

You guys are the best, seriously.

Probably, thats why I'm not enjoying myself here. Without you guys, without my sweet girlfriend.

It's easy to meet new people here. But I can safely say less than FIVE will stay in my life after I graduate.

TRUE friends are hard to get by here. I thought I had met a couple, just to be disappointed afterwards.

Is it about the money? (Yes, singaporeans here are RICH)

How much assets your family has?

What car are you driving here/back in singapore?

What business line does your family do?

Do you come from a well-known school?

How many 7s do you have?

It's sad, really.

I came overseas to study, is to meet more people, widen my horizons.

But first mistake, coming to uq, where 75% are singaporeans.

I don't think I have any aussie friends at all.

That's how sad it is.

It doesn't matter how you treat people.

If they don't reciprocate, they don't reciprocate.

There's nothing you can do about it.

You're always gonna be on your own.

Hard lesson learnt.

And that's why I say,

YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!

Eh, probably second-best.

After Michelle.

2011-09-21T07:43:00.000-07:00

"Strong people know how to keep their life in order.

Even with tears in their eyes, they still manage to say "I'm ok" with a smile.

Send this to a strong person. I just did."

Close friend of mine just sent me this message.

I smiled for a moment, but then stopped to think about it.

I felt undeserving of it.

I'm not strong.
I cringe and crumble under stress easily.

And start to emit my negative emotions.

How is this strong?

He's right, coming to think of it.

"It's hard to get a 4."

Well, I managed to get 2 of them.

How the hell can I get a 4 after a mid semester grade like that?

I would have to fail my final paper.

Which I did.
No need to call for a re-mark. I know it myself.

Summing all up.

Easily one of the worst GPA attained, if not the worst in the entire batch.

New semester.

I felt prepared.

But still.

Crumbled under pressure.

Stupid mistakes.

Forgetting important information.

Same story. Different day.

Always holding high expectations in whatever I start on.

Only to be hugely disappointing in the end. In everyone's eyes. In my own eyes.

Depressing

Emotionally drained.

I'm not smart. I know.

Someone told me so too.

I take a longer time to understand than others.

Probably double the time. Or even longer.

Just typed in a Google search, 'how to become smarter?'

You might think I'm a nutter.

But I'm desperate.

Desperate to turn things around.

Desperate to get things right for a change.

It's not working for me at the moment.

"Father, Father, Father. Send some guidance from above."

I'm at my crossroads.

Feeling. Feeling that I will never succeed in life.

- I am Me. It's just Me.

2011-07-28T23:56:00.000-07:00

Did i make the right decision at that point in time?

I think i deserved to get laughed at, even though she didn't mean it.

At least others knew what they wanted.

Which is extra time to study.

And they got the results they desired.

But me?

I was contemplating, to go or not to go, until the very last moment.

So I thoroughly deserve the results that I've gotten.

And can blame no one about it.

I want to be optimistic.

Like a particular friend of mine.

Always looking forward to reading his tweets.

Full of optimism.

But I always fail myself.

Every time, and i mean, EVERY TIME whenever i encounter problems, i just break down.

I can never face it like a MAN.

Such a failure.

Disappointment to my family.

Disappointment to you.

Should never have came in the first place and wasted all my parents' money.

Pray and hope for a better semester.

2011-07-05T20:37:00.000-07:00

Results are out.

Passed all.

Barely.

Don't compare,

don't compare..

Results epitomises hard work.

I just didn't study hard enough.

2011-05-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

It's all my fault.

It's my fault that I left you on 140211.

It's my fault I can't be there when you need me.

It's my fault if i go out and enjoy myself here, while you have to stay at home.

It's my fault when i decided to travel, rather than go back sg.

IT'S MY FAULT that i decided to come to Australia in the first place.

It hurt me what you said today.

And I felt really disappointed and sad.

But still, i appreciate you telling me, so I can change.

I don't know how yet, but I will do my best.

For You. I will.

2011-05-04T03:54:00.000-07:00

Today, you complained about my stagnant facebook wall, and yours. oops. =x

So i came online, and almost immediately, i came across this video, posted by my friend.

It's really sweet.

Touched my heart so much. Almost teared.

And I know you did. =)

You are right.

It was 5 years for them, what's 1.5 for us?

This is a test. A big test for us.

Which I think we can overcome.

Nobody said it's gonna be easy.

I truly believe we are going to learn to cherish each other at the end of this all.

And our relationship is only going to become stronger.

Don't you agree?

I can be insensitive at times.

I might be blur and act like a woodblock at times.

But,

at the end of the day,

I still love you.

I'm not perfect.

But without you,

I can never be.

♥

Baby, let's do the list yeah?

It's super sweet and cool! =D

2011-04-19T19:33:00.000-07:00

Today.

Marks the start.

I need to change.

to be less emo.

Forget about what's happened.

Focus on what's gonna happen.

Work on my studies.

Work on us.

No more facebook.

It's the cause of the trouble and it's a waste of time.

I have no time.

No more parties, till after my exams.

I partied far too much.

I-WILL-STUDY-EVERYDAY. I-WILL-STUDY-EVERYDAY. I-WILL-STUDY-EVERYDAY.

I will hit the library everyday, if not i will still study at home.

My aim for now,

Banking 5/7.

Investments 6/7.

Cost Accounting 6/7.

Financial Reporting 7/7.

It's still makable. I can do this.

That will give me an overall 6.

Which is pretty darn awesome for my first semester.

Come on Scott.

Get your life back in order.

This is not being emo.

This is abt being determined.

to achieve your goals.

And most importantly,

get someone back.

get her back on my side.

Come on Scott.

You can do this shit.

Ican'taffordtoloseyou.

2011-04-09T23:09:00.001-07:00

Blogging now.

When i should not.

When i don't even have enough time, to do my tuts, study for exams.

But i just wanna let it out a little.

Just got back my Cost Accounting mid-sem result which is 30% weightage.

21/30.

Simply means my high distinction of 7 is over for this subject.

As you will need a 85% and above to get a grade 7.

9% gone. Get what i mean?

Disappointed, but kinda expected after the exam.

It was considered my easier subjects out of the 4, so i was really looking to score.

Guess it was just not meant to be.

Next up, banking and lending decisions and Investment papers.

Struggling with Investments, and the textbook.

There are already so many formulaes and concepts in Chp 1.

6 Chapters for the mid-sem. 40% weightage.

While Banking on the other hand, has no textbook to refer to. And the tut exercise is always one long essay question.

How do you study for it?

I'm really struggling now.

It's only mid-semester.

I keep telling myself to do well.

But it's only the halfway mark.

And I'm struggling like mad.

Pls god. Pls.

Gimme the brains to study.

To remember what i studied.

And to apply what i studied.

2011-03-22T04:46:00.000-07:00

Feeling damn frustrated today.
Hotmail got hacked, and they dont recognise my verification details.

I have sent them LOADS of information.

Folder names. Secret question. Contacts. Recent emails AND subjects. Password.

What else do they want?

I NEED my email back.

All my school materials are in it, important documents, VISA.

They really suck.

Guys. DO NOT use hotmail already.

It's time to change to a better one.
If not, a PAID and secured one.

Went to the library for about 5 hours today, hoping to get some tuts done.

BUT, I did not even complete half of the work im supposed to.

I feel so disappointed in myself.

Went for investments lecture after that.

And I couldn't understand half of it.

Feel like I have to eat my textbook or something.

I feel for the lecturer for the turnout(and those who left grim-faced halfway thru) of students.

But at the same time, i wonder, why can't he use simpler terms to get across his points?

Or is it impossible to do so?

Really have no idea.

I recorded a small part of his lecture and sent to Michelle.

She told me probably is just his slang.

Well, it makes it even tougher.

I kinda feel my target to do honours is slowly slipping away from my grasp.

Am I thinking too highly of myself? (Targeting a 7 for 2 subjects, and 6 for the other 2)

Or am I doing enough?

Am i doing my best?

How would you know that?

How would you know whether are you doing your best?

Just go do your tuts, Scott.

Fortunately, there's you.

To encourage me.

2011-03-01T20:33:00.000-08:00

Writing this on the carpeted floor in my new home.

Finally gonna settle down after 2 weeks of looking for a place to stay.

Still don't really feel good though.

The house looks great on the outside, but the maintenance kinda suck.

There's quite a serious plumbing issue, with the water from the toilet coming out from a pipe in the garden.
Really disgusting.

The garden is in a mess, with flying bugs and insects all over the place.

Can't complain about this though, cause it's just summertime.

Anyways, school's began.

4 mods I'm taking.

Cost Accounting.

Financial Reporting.

Investment & Porfolio Management.

Banking and Lending Decisions.

I've attended 3 of the lectures already.

1 Aussie(I think.)

1 Chilean.

1 African.

Who's next?! China?! hahahaha!

But gosh. it's stressful.

It's only the first lecture, and the investment lecturer, the African, completed 74 slides! omg.

You can just see the look on everyone's faces.

But that's not all.

He gives his lecture, as if he's rapping! goodness.

I don't know whether it's the accent, or I just don't get what is he saying sometimes.
God pls help me.

There's this quite interesting thing for another module though.

Financial Reporting.

There are 3 quizzes for assessment, and they are open-book!

5% each!

And do during your own free time! Awesome?!

AND....

You can keep retrying, till u are satisfied with your results.

WHAT!

yes.

If you can 29/30, you can say NO.

Let's go again.

As many times as you want.

hahahaha. thats like the ONLY good news so far lah. hehe.

Housemates back with Hungry Jacks!

Catch ya soon mates!

Missingyou.

2011-02-21T07:00:00.000-08:00

its been 1 week in brisbane already.

Have i gotten used to life here?

hmmm...Well. i know my body hasn't.

Been a little too constipated, losing my usual appetite.

Just had an overnight laxative. Its in the form of a chocolate! LOL.

Hope it will work though..

I know i need to give u more attention.

I will do my best. I promise.

Pls give me some time. AND I NEED MY IPHONE.

Gosh. im damn unlucky, getting a crocked iphone when i bought it. sigh.

Fortunately, dearie's friends have really been awesome for the past 1 week, with her havin company almost everyday!

Really, really relieved to see her occupied with stuffs, and not let her mind wander too far off. =)

L-O-V-E.

2011-02-17T05:23:00.000-08:00

FINALLY GOT MY NEW SKIN AND MY BLOG RUNNING AGAIN!!!! =D

2010-09-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

Run. run. RUN.

12.09 -AHM 21km
Flag off: Esplanade Bridge, 0512.

24.10 - Nike 10km
Flag off: TBC, 0700.

05.12 - Standard Chartered 42.195km
Flag off: Rumoured Near Ngee Ann City, with X'mas lights on!!, 0500.

Good job babe on registering for the Nike run, embarking on your first event run!! Lets train HARD!

happyNo.10. :)
muacks.

2010-08-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

Nothing beats delivering breakfast to baby on your off day, reaching her house, and giving her the wake-up call. =)

Things have been rather easy-going these few days.
Ord syndrome starting to set in as well. haha. 4 more weeks! 14 more working days!(less leave)
On the downside, gonna be jobless soon. omg. gotta feeling i will not be able to get a job in many months to come.
and hong kong trip coming up soon in october. so gotta get a job real sooooon!

Singapore's getting bored. okay, there's RWS, Marina Sands, Marina Barrage. but we're still bored. Nowhere to go. nothing to do. shit.

Her. =)

woaini.

2010-07-24T00:26:00.000-07:00

i realised.
that i love MICHELLE ANG very much! <3

2010-07-06T06:16:00.000-07:00

Bangkok tomorrow for a well-needed break!!! YEAH!
With Mic, Regina and Joanne.
Yups. im the only guy. hope i wont be too lonely =(
Im guessing i wont shop much, due to my outgrown wardrobe..
yups. i can hardly close it now=p
but then again.
i heard stuffs are cheap in bangkok!
and i have spent on the airfares and hotel already..
So why not?! haha.
lets shop till we drop and eat till we pop!
Then when i touch back down, its gonna be the world cup final!! OMG.
I seriously hope my Deutschland is gonna win it. My second home!
Cant imagine the celebrations going on there right now.
Wanna be right in the midst of it! but im like 10000+ km away =(
its okay. Guys! my heart is with you! Ich bin DEUTSCHLAND!!!
And on monday morning, my Basic Diving Course starts!
Everything is planned out for me almost till the end of July.
Hope everything will run smoothly!
Ciao!

soexcitedgoingonmyfirsttripwithyou.
letsmakeitagoodone.
wait.
happy8thmonth!! =D

2010-06-20T10:29:00.000-07:00

Has been another long longggggg week.
Fieldcamp week! omg.
Mosquitoes feeding, the hard HAMMERING of the recruits, to bonding with the instructors.
it has been some experience.
Although it might not always go that smoothly,
or people might not recognise your effort,
But as long as you gain something from it,
and your conscience is clear,
it might just probably be worthwhile after all.
Sometimes when i think my ord is in a couple of months time,
i might miss this after all.
despite all my moanings and whinings about how difficult it is.
I mean, hey.
Its not easy to work when your efforts go unnoticed, and when theres tension between colleagues, ready to implode anytime.
but honestly,
i might just miss it when my ord comes. haha.

2 more months!!!

ok. gotta slp soon. Getting on darling's nerves when its 1.41am on a monday morning when i gotta wake up at 645 for camp. Cya! =)

Imforevertired
nomatterhowmuchisleep
orhowmuchcoffeeidrink
Badhabit!!

2010-06-12T11:16:00.000-07:00

World cup feeeeeeeeeverrrrrrr!!!!! Woo-hoo!!!
Spent my precious tgif with my precious. =)
Oh YEAH. And as well as the whole of my saturday. wahahaha.
'A-team' simply rocksss.
Both of us were like close to shutting our eyes at Gloria jeans right b4 the movie.
BUT the movie simply kept us at the edge of our seats the entire time. haha!
Promise u babe. By end of this year, will bring u to universal studios k? be patient.
For now, remember your promise u just made. =)

Nice weekend so far. Kinda what u need to forget some unhappy stuffs at work...

ibloggedlikefinally!
sorryforthedelay.

2010-04-29T03:59:00.000-07:00

haha. finally my turn to blog while you're resting on my bed!! yesh.
but pls get better from your stomache k?

Finally.
I understood the meaning of "Drunk".
i was drunk last saturday.
Was at zouk last sat.
and got dead drunk.
Cant believe how many times i vomited.
From the zouk'stoilet-outsideofzouk-outsideofhotel-insidecar-outsidemyhouse-inthetoilet-onmybed.
Yups. Countless. I was a goner.
I couldnt move no matter how hard i tried.
I just wanted to lie down at every opportunity, which totally pissed my frens off who had to lift me up. =p
Literally got carried all the way from outside zouk to my bed. shit.
Thank you so much everyone for taking care of me and sorry for the 'love' i spread ard.
yz.ws.ivy.giam.
and of course u, michelle.
For taking care of me the entire night.
think i would have died without u.
my bro didnt even wake up to help me when i was making so much noise! damn! haha.
And i didnt sleep a wink. Felt like throwing my guts out all the time.
All in all, just a bad bad experience. =[

Ishouldknowmylimits.
Sorryguysforthetrouble.
Sorrybabe.

2010-04-09T03:29:00.000-07:00

TGIF!

This friday really cant come any sooner.
After a long and tough week.
Being really sick.
And the work in camp.
Just takes the toll on your body.
Whew.
Finally recovering now..
At least I feel so.
All thanks to you!
Michelle Ang.
Your TLC.
Tender.
Loving.
Care.

Muacks.
ilu.

2010-04-01T23:52:00.001-07:00

Good friday!!!!!! my ass.
Been emo since the start of the day,
been sick since god knows when,
been ignored by mum blatantly for a week now,
been stressed out at work,
been missin u.

Whats going on with my life?
I always cant seem to handle stress well.
I always get emo over trivial stuff.
Just like a girl.

Luckily theres you around. whew.
Although u flood my fb and twitter page,
I always smile at your silly comments.
Maybe im not sweet enough to think of what to write for u.
thats y yours is so empty.
and now im guilty abt it.
even more guilty.
when u call yourself a bitch.
when u are actually concerned abt me.
And just trying to cheer me up.
so.
If ure the bitch,
im the bastard.
birds of a feather flock together.

Bringthesmilebackonmyface.

2010-03-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

sick again! damn what is wrong with me? 2nd straight week alr. sigh.
Sometimes i just feel like an old man. getting older, health deteriorating.

yeaps.
after 140 days.
our first quarrel.
Quarrel (as taken from dictionary.com) --> verbal disagreement between individuals or groups and is used with reference to a large variety of situations, from a slight and petty difference of opinion to a violent altercation.
Basically, thats what happened.
verbal disagreement.
or should i say sms disagreement.
after yesterday, i really dislike quarrels.
the feeling u get.
Its because u care.
u care too much.
which makes it even more hurting.
anyways.
im glad we could sort it out so quickly.
one person always needs to take the first step.
but for us.
i think both of us did. =)
ilu.

Letsdothislessoften.
MichelleAng.
YouknowIloveYou, right?
=D

2010-03-11T09:17:00.000-08:00

Been having tough luck this past 2 months.

Car got scratched by rubbish truck, and got blamed by everyone for not parking properly. I parked the same way i parked the car everyday. Sighs.

Parking fee of $15+ got conned at Winsland House. Thing is, I parked there almost every Saturday, and at the same time, and got charged $2.50. Why? I have not a single clue.

Asics shoes got stolen on a random night by some random thief who took my Asics randomly with a wide array of shoes displayed at my doorstep. Suspected of climbing in from my back gate. Sighs.

Shits just keep piling up at my workplace, nothing going smoothly, nobody seems interested in helping me out, everybody seems to want a piece of me. Ich bin mude. My trainees are my only motivation now.

Tough luck eh? Crazy shits just keeps on coming. When will it stop?

Why does Class95 love songs always have sad stories relating to LDR, and it always leads up to a breakup? And "Dear John"! Omg. Just always manage to makes u wonder...

I know it will be hard.
The waiting will be torturous.
And i cant promise u that we will last thru this period.
But what if we did not even try?
We wont know what will happen.
What i can promise u is this,
I will do my very best to sustain it.
C'mon! Lets not use other stories to compare it with ours.
Lets make our own history.

By the way.
We still have a longggggg way to go before next year!! =D

ilu.

2010-02-23T06:23:00.000-08:00

Sooooooo many things to blog about.
Im getting fatter after the eating trip to hk.
didnt manage to shop much for my stuffs! =(
Was casino hopping most of the time in macau.
I experienced a lot, and seen how crazy people can get gambling.
Its really scary. I realised i dun like casinos.
I myself can lose about S$90 just for a few hours. on jackpot machines.
ridiculous. fortunately, i was lucky on the roulette and managed to just break even.
I walked away almost immediately. Just took it and go.
Was definitely tempted to keep on going.
THATS why its scary. omg.
Hopefully Singaporeans will practise more self-control with the IR comin up.
Guys, please dont get addicted!!

33rd batch trainees enlisting next week.
Im itching and raring to go.
But will i be up to it?
Only time will tell.
Let this be a fruitful experience! =)

2010-02-12T09:32:00.000-08:00

Packed week!! whewwww.
Wed. Mambo-ed with mic, nica, ed, cw, yx!
Awesome as always.
I wanna master the moves!!!
We actually went to some thai pub AFTER THAT. ROCKS.
Thats what happens when u hang out with monica, ed and friends! =)

Thurs. physio-ed. Doc gave me 3 months excuse run, march and jump?!
Sigh.
Pri sch gathering at night at sakura!

Fri. 11plus after camp, turned up at SIM to give her a surprise!
But...she saw thru it. sighhh.
Anyways, hope u like the flowers!! muacks!!
Maybe this time u wont need to throw it away so soon! =)
Went back to Sembawang sec to have a bbq gathering with Mr Raj!!
Damn coooooool! Havent seen him in such a longggg time.
Just a pity so many either couldnt make it...or flew our aeroplanes way up into the sky.
Was late for more than 30mins for my german make up lesson after that. shit.
Pre-V.day dinner after that at Giraffe. Nice and cosy place.
Just that i simply had no appetite for anything.

Sat. To Hong Kong for 5 days!!!!

Happy new year guys! Enjoy!!!

Pitywecouldntspendourfirstfeb14thtogether.
Hopewegonnahavemanymoretocome!

happyvalentinesdaybabe.
ichliebedich. =)

2010-02-02T08:07:00.000-08:00

How can beyonce win some many grammys?
Single ladies?!
Best RnB?
omg.
"All the single ladies, all the single ladies....oh oh oh oh oh..."
C'mon guys.
There are much better songs out there.
So damn disappointed b.e.p did not win as many.
they ROCK!
I gotta feeling should have like won tons of awards for them.
haha.
But i guess Taylor Swift deserves it too.
Conclusion.
How can Beyonce be the biggest winner?!
damn.

Shopping with her today.
Coz I was asked to run some errands and in the end got the day off.
She went for tuition and I studiously went starbucks at compass pt to catch up on my german. =)
Gotta say, its getting tougher each lesson. With all the 'artikle', 'dativ', 'nomative' shit.

Headed over to M.S after that and just strolled like how a couple always do. haha.
But got deprived of looking at the shelves! =( ok. I know my wardrobe is full. =D
Kenny Rogers for dinner.
Still have one of the best and cheapest muffins around. Only $1.20! Must-try~!!
There came the time of the day.
Hardest part.
to separate.
sigh.
Gotta admit.
Its gettin more difficult.

We'resimplyinseparable.irresistible.incredible. =)

2010-02-01T02:14:00.000-08:00

Monday bluuuues.
Had a lil trouble waking up in the morning 'cause of a *tough* night. haha. =x
So decided to reach abt 15mins later.
DAMN.
Saw my superior on the way in.
Pretended not to see him when i passed him.
But as I stared into my rear view mirror.
There he was, checking his watch.
Sigh.
After breakfast.
Attended a meeting with higher authority.
There they were, equipped with whatever visions they have for us or how they plan to utilise us.

"U will be an Instructor, your knowledge by right should be better than ours!"
"U will be heavily involved in the BMT training. U are Section Leader trained right?"
"Main motive of this meeting is ACTUALLY to help u guys feel more meaningful during your NS life. Not just sit around, conduct ippt or waiting for time to go home."

I was like thinking.
Maybe this can work out.
More work, time passes faster.
Time passes faster, ORD comes earlier.
haha.
I mean, this was what i expected/wanted in the 1st place right?
Becoming a pti.
Coming here.
Training people.

I've learnt to be a little bit more optimistic.
But...
why didnt all these happen earlier!?
Only after 7 months im here?
sigh.
of course im gonna have a cultural shock.

just gotta do my best i guess.

icanjuststareatourpicturealldayatwork...
andkeepsmilingtomyself. =)

2010-01-26T07:25:00.000-08:00

Back from Hatyai, Thailand!
And of course,
back to reality.
Sigh.
Great trip.
Cheap food, drinks, and shopping!! haha.
I really hope u like the stuffs I bought u..
Im satisfied with my shopping. Just that I overspent! omg.

Alrightys.
Its back to work tmr!
Be optimistic!
Patience.
Work hard.
Train hard.
Get fit.
IPPT Gold.
I can do it!!!
C'mon!

Next destination: Hong Kong.
Company: With parents
When: in 18 days!
hahaha. Woo-hoo!!

iloveitwhenuwritelongandchessylettersforme.
justmakesmefeelloved.
iloveitwhenublogaboutmewhenimnotaround.
justmakesmefeelsoloved.
iloveitwhenukeepsayingumissme.
justmakesmefeelsodamnloved!

ilu2.

2010-01-17T05:19:00.000-08:00

cant believe that we went zouk last night again.
happy on one hand, but on the other...sigh.
can u pls promise me u wont get addicted.
dun make me hate myself for bringing u into this kinda life.
i love partying with u.
honestly.
its sooooo much fun!
ilu.

ireallydunlikeitwhenukeepthingsfromme.
especiallywhenithassomethinggottadowithme.
andujustgetemo.

2010-01-05T10:33:00.000-08:00

i should just...
suck it up.

2010-01-04T04:27:00.000-08:00

and i thought being a pti is easy peasy.
maybe at other places.
maybe not.
but.
definitely not at ndu.
nope. its not easy.
yea. its 8-430.
yay! 3 cheers for that!
but.
Probably only that.
i simply get so much shit.
nvm.
I take it.
I will do it.
but.
do i get any help or guidance?
no.
does anyone understand my plight?
no.
does anyone even fcuking appreciate what i do.
N-O.
nvm.
I try to force the issue.
work on it.
a little more thick-skinned.
but.
still cant get anything done.

I feel really lost.
I dunno wad to do.
wad can i do.
Is it just me?
am i too nice?
not being matured enough to handle the harsh reality of the outside world?
sigh.

9 more months.
36 weeks.
250 days.
cant come any quicker.

justgladuaretheretocheermeupandencourageme. ilu, M.

2010-01-01T00:17:00.000-08:00

twenty-ten.
Start of a new year. new beginning.
Hmm. Lets see what were my resolutions for 2009 again?

1. A slack vocation which is 8-5 and near my house
2. Make a photo album for my germany trip
3. Strike Toto
4. Take up German language
5. Learn to study stock market
6. Take up guitar
7. Occasional golf and bowling sessions
8. Keep in contact with all my friends out there!!

okie. I guess more than half was accomplished!! Woooooo!!! =)
Time for new ones. hehe.

1. STILL to be able to strike toto. wahaha.
2. Apply for a university.
3. O.R.D
4. Half of a 'Jacob-like' body. YEAH!
5. STILL to make a decent photo album.
6. Renovate my room!!
7. Be a better pti and conduct lessons more professionally.
8. Spend wisely.
9. Learn at least 1 guitar song.
10. Newcastle to get promoted and be bought over by someone rich who loves the club.
11. Go on a holiday(HK!) with u. =)
12. Lastly, of course, endless of good times with u =)

Heard its a good year for dragons.
Hope my resolutions come true.

Have a great Twentyten everyone!

May2010beamemorableyearforus. =)

2009-12-31T00:23:00.000-08:00

Supperclubbed last night.
It was free flow for ladies till 12.
And 5 free drinks for guys.
5! Damn wu hua.
Somemore 1 ticket can be changed for tequila shot. WOOT.
Nice music.
Nice party.
All night long.
With u. =)

Kboxing to the new year!! Cant wait!

didntknowpartycouldbesofunwithu.

2009-12-09T08:30:00.000-08:00

Stupid freak accident.
Mis-kicked while swimming and cut my toe by the tiles.
Non-stop profuse bleedin' for 1hour+ despite pressure to the wound.

"No choice, gonna send u to hospital. Inform your parents."
FCUK. That serious?
Next moment, im in an ambulance for the first time in my life.
Kinda cool to see all the cars makin way for once.
"Hey broken toe in here! Make way! Get lost!!"
wahahahahas. fun shit.

Alrights. first time in a wheelchair. SOoo damn helpless.
Parents and bro came. But i chased them away, as still gotta wait for 2 hours.
Sigh. Made myself worse.
When my name is called out, still gotta wait for the nurse to come push me in. damn.
Doc saw me, x-ray followed.
Conclusion, STITCH. FCUK.
"Sssttttich? No other way?"
"Hmmm. Wound is quite deep, and it also recovers faster that way."
Do i have a choice?

Next minute, he pushed me into an operating theatre.
Gosh. How alone i felt for once in my life. No one to turn to. No one to talk to.
Injections came, and the sewing starts.
I dare not see. seriously. I didnt even count how many stitches I had. Crazy shit.

2 days mc! sigh. so short.

PAY DAY!! Longggggg awaited. =D

L.o.v.e is,
I see her everyday in a week...
And I still feel I havent seen her enough! =)

Sorrybabeformakinucry.

2009-12-07T08:12:00.000-08:00

i don't know what to update for my blog.
shit.

Friday was good.
Saturday was great.
Sunday was fantastic
Today is AWESOME! =)
What a weekend...........

withyoubaby. =)

youknowiknoweverybodydontknow.

2009-11-30T04:51:00.000-08:00

What a crazy month this is.

Umpteen birthday parties. You know who u culprits are, Nov babies!! haha.
Once again. Huiqi. Cherwei. Huiwen. Mad. Mel. Junyi. Pris. Happy happy twentyfirst!

Like literally, TOTALLY overspent this month.
Just had a long 1 week break from camp.
Turns out to be not such a great idea after all.
Had some sort of a cultural shock when i got back.
So damnnnnnn boring. Sucky feeling.
Need to find the drive to get things done!

Maybe SOMEONE will provide it? =)

Imallaboutu.

=)

2009-11-27T00:06:00.000-08:00

it's been days.
no.
weeks.
no.
months.
no.
years.

Since...................................................

2009-11-20T08:53:00.000-08:00

honeyz - Finally found.

Ooh ooh ooh

I can't believe you're here with me
And now it seems my world's complete
And I never want this moment to end
I close my eyes and still I see
My dreams become reality
And now I know how it feels to be in love
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
I think it's time for you to hear these lines
'Cos there's something I want to say

I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you

Sometimes you don't expect that friends
Can become lovers in the end
Only God knows what the future will bring
So hold me close and don't let go
'Cos this is love boy, don't you know?
And we're gonna be together for eternity
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
A love so strong it can't be wrong
It's with you that I belong

I finally found what I've been looking for (finally found)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there ( you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you (you)

(This time) this time
I'm gonna make sure it turns out right
I wanna be your everything and by your side
For the rest of my life
(This love)
This love feels the way that love should be
Look in my eyes and realise there's no disguise
'Cos I'm in love with you

I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
To think that you were always there (you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
(Wipe away my tears)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(It's always been you)

I finally found what I've been looking for (I finally found)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold (oh) me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (don't you know?)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears (oh baby)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(Always been you, yeah yeah)

I finally found what I've been looking for (I finally found it)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
(Yeah, I finally found it)
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you oh)
To think that you were always there (what I been looking for)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
(What I been looking for)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(Always always)

emo.

2009-11-05T08:59:00.000-08:00

gosh. havent blogged in ages. sorry guys!!
been soooo damn busy this past 1 month, since my bday party.
bday parties, parties and MORE parties. Just so many!! hahas.
And guess wad, its not over yet! not till the year is over. sigh. i really neeed a breather.

Btw i still cant get over my party man. it rocks too much. Yet another night of happiness and tears.
Touched and ecstatic at the same time. Greetings from the other side of the world!! Simply awesome.
I feel like i have the greatest frens. Willing to put in so much just to help make my party a memorable one. Makin the vid, getting frens from Europe to record their greetings on video, and not mentioning that they ACTUALLY DID.
Its just so OMG. Im so so so so touched.

Sometimes i think to myself, what did i do to deserve all these? All these acts. Am I that such a nice guy? or so special?
Arent i just another guy next door?
Arent i just A Scott/Jiun Yuen?
hahaha. i dunno. Guess only u guys know. I just love and treasure my frens soooo much. Dunno whr will i be without them, or how my life would be like.

Thank u Rikki/Shachin. Thank u Subi. U guys rocked too much, putting in so much effort.
Thank u Peh and the rest of the Judokas. Helpin me out with the decos and plannin.
Thank u David, Patrick, Natalia, Ralphael for the videos frm France and Germany. It just brings back so much memories we had tgt. In Mosbach and Singapore.
Thank u Nejc, Anna and Beatrice for making the vid as well. Although i hadnt got a chance to see it yet due to some technical probs, but i hope i can get to see it soon! Thank u so much for the effort.
Thank u Mad and HW for helping out with the guestbook and ideas. haha! U gals were so helpful even though i was so last min in asking for help.

Thank u EVERYONE for coming. Making the night happen. Makin my 21st the most memorable birthday ever.

PEICHUN.
jy and jh i bet u wont forget the 2 pics we took tgt! haha. specially in the vid for u guys! vanezza, coolest haircut =)

SEMBAWANG.
4e2+kenny, u do know u guys rock right. coolest bday gift ever. A 4e2 autographed guitar. Woohoo.
Da Family, haha. only pity is that cherwei, hw and wh didnt make it. So disappointed. Jia hao yue not yuan. sigh sigh. =( Nevertheless, So glad most came!

NYP.
FS/BF0501, NCG!! haha. sorry matt and wk for the smart casual thing. but i really didnt mind. Dick, your album really rocks and the red packet is the BEST!!! Mic, for comin even though yours was the next day. Such a pity we werent able to do it tgt. Would be lotsa fun! LOL! so sad xp, jf and the rest of the flowers didnt come..but still..hope u guys had fun yea!!
Random/Soccer/AF, thanks for the after party at rebel and stayin allll the way. Clubbin buddies. hehe.

ARMY.
PTI, troublemakers unite! haha. buddy kirby, gotta say your page in the guestbook one of the nicest page man. nice design! shaun, sry for not mentioning U are the spiderman. hehe. i missed that one out.
NDU, the most feared gang in the whole unit. PTIs, who can kill by not givin that single second, or that 1cm. MPs, who can book u for any single thing and u can do no shit abt it. LIFEGUARDs, hmmm. Just by not savin yur life. HEHE. Now tell me. Isnt this gang the most feared in the unit? Guess what? we are 1 BIG HAPPY FAMILY. So...try not to step on our tails yea? wahahaha!!

LIQUIDS.
Sooooo sorry for missin u guys out for the phototaking session. so damn guilty! k la. Actually the real reason is bcoz u guys made me eat a freakin GRASSHOPPER. Of coz i gotta take revenge. HAHA. Cant wait to get back there and work with u guys again! Serious!

I think thats abt all. But lastly of coz my FAMILY. My parents. taking my shit for 21yrs. THANKS =)

Over the moon!

Scotty.

2009-10-13T08:11:00.000-07:00

How can someone be so unreasonable? Really ridiculous.
Just a simple dine-out.
Just a short 15mins.
Short-tempered,
No patience,
or PMS?
Gotta go thru so much trouble.
Caused everyone to be pissed off.
No longer got the appetite to eat anything.
Made it so complicated.
NVM.
I apologise.
From the bottom of my heart.
It was my fault.
But now, threaten not to come this sat.
Just great.
Fantastic.
Sehr Gut.
AWESOME.

FINE. Dont come. I'll just pay everything myself.
Its okie.
I dont want this to ruin my party.
Just fcuk it.

2009-10-12T06:48:00.000-07:00

Less than a week left!!! Argh. Havin butterflies in my stomach alr. haha.

Feel damn lucky to have some great frens helpin me out with the plannin of the party.

Though its kinda weird, but initially i was prepared to plan it by myself. family members are busy with work, frenz are busy with either NS or studies. So didnt really think about bothering anyone.

But i thank u shachin, subi and peh for ur efforts. Appreciate it alot. Though i dunno what to expect, but im sure i can count on u guys....i hope. =)

Anyways, lotsa ya has been askin me what do i want/need. I dont really fancy LISTING everything on my mind out on facebook. Its like being a lil materialistic and desperate or smth. Dont really like it. Okie, i know its an obligation to bring me somethin, but if u really cant think of any OR lazy to think (HEHE. Dont lie, I have been thru this stage b4.), a simple red packet would be sufficient. I just wanna have a great party with you guys and have FUN!

HOWEVER, for those who follows me here, well...i guess i can reveal a little.

*Wishlist*
Being a PTI, i need this for the ippt stations and to keep track of ....
Ipod, music, .......

All i can think of...More to come! =)

2009-09-17T10:51:00.000-07:00

I gotta feeling
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x4)

Tonight’s the night!
Let’s live it up!
I got my money
Let’s spend it up
Go out and smash it
like Oh My God!
Jump off that sofa
Let’s get get OFF!!

I know that we’ll have a ball
if we get down
and go out
and just loose it all
I feel stressed out
I wanna let it go
Lets go way out spaced out
and loosing all control

Fill up my cup
Mozoltov
Look at her dancing
just take it off
Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Let’s burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

Lets Do it(x3)
and do it
Lets live it up

I gotta feeling
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x2)

Tonight’s the night (HEY!)
let’s live it up (lets live it up)
I got my money
Lets spend it up (lets spend it up)
Go out and smash it (Smash it)
Like Oh My God! (Like Oh my God)
Jump off that sofa (C'mon!)
Lets get get OFF

Fill up my cup (Drink)
Mozolotov (Lahyme)
Look at her dancing (Move it Move it)
Just take it off
Lets paint the town (Paint the town)
We’ll shut it down (We'll shut it down)
Lets burn the roof (wooo)
and then we’ll do it again

lets do it (x3)
let’s live it up

Here we come
here we go
we gotta rock rock rock rock rock

Easy come easy go
now we on top top top top top

Feel the shot
body rock
Rock it don’t stop stop stop stop stop

Round and round
up and down
around the clock clock clock clock clock

Monday, Tuesday
Wednesday, and Thursday
Friday, Saturday
Saturday to Sunday

get get get get get with us
you know what we say
party every day
pa pa pa Party every day

and Im feelin'
that tonight's gonna be a good night
that tonight's gonna be a good night
that tonight's gonna be a good good night (x2)

B.e.P rocks. 'nuff said.

2009-09-13T23:14:00.000-07:00

Nothing beats lazin at home when nothing seems to be going right for u. Sigh.

German's getting more fun as time pass.
Ich bin Fitness Ausbilder beim Militar!! haha.

Started my first self-learn guitar session with zq which rocked!! 'Cause im the man who can't be moved...'

But not sure whether i should apply for lessons? coz i totally have no confidence that I will be able to learn it all by myself. damn.

Training with the diver trainees kinda fun and meaningful, but looking at their bodies, i thought to myself, 'should they be training me instead?' Monster-lookin bodies, im tellin ya.
Gotta make my lessons more interesting though. Im sorta just going thru the motion, teaching what im supposed to, sayin what im suppose to say. Gotta buck up!!!

Been to a wakeboarding session as well. I actually did it! I managed to stand up and took on the waves. hahaha. Really cool sport to play, but DAMN expensive one. 90 bucks for 4 hrs. per person. Woooo. Thoroughly enjoyed the experience though.

Lastly, finally. One more month to my 21st! Whew. Its abt time it came. After attending so many already. LOL.

Random pics to follow.

Buddy Kirby suitting up.

Focus!!

Leong Beng gettin ready to jump!

My watch! haha. But is it me?

'Why am i doin this?!' kinda face.

Spidey Shaun.

Instructor JM sharin his thoughts.

2009-08-19T06:34:00.000-07:00

Respect.
This is not one thing which u demand to have.
But its the most basic thing one shld give.

I can say i worked hard to be a pti.
All i deserve is that little basic respect.
If im in still part of the army, this wouldnt be happenin..
Not even in the commandos.
But now, in where i am, we are treated like....
This is not only part of my side of the story.
Even THEY themselves admit it.
They dun give a FCUK abt ptis.
Jus wanna find trouble with us when we are jus doin our damn jobs.
1 can even ask, 'y are u guys so ANAL abt GIVING the 1 or 2 sec for the 2.4 km run?'
ANAL eh. Its our fcukin job.

Well, if u dun like us, Fcuk off. I dont give a shit.

2009-08-09T11:05:00.000-07:00

started learnin german on sat! Feelin' damn excited abt it. Hitting the books and attending lessons. And of course with dick and the singh. hehe.

Well, all i can say is...AWESOME. The lesson totally rocks! Nostalgic. Its like germany all over again.

Classmates are from all over the place, Indonesia, Myanmar, China, Malaysia and Thailand i think?

And it turns out that we are the youngest amongst the whole lot too! Scheisse! haha.

When the teacher was teaching, she was like DEUTSCH all the way. Even giving instruction and stuff like that. EVEN when we do not understand, she still uses german to explain her way out, till we understand. damn cool. LOL.

3 hrs flew past quite quickly..and of course time to give the hausaufgaben. and guess what? DEUTSCH again! haha. I THINK it was to practise speaking the following sections under the following pages.......OK, Im not even sure whats the homework! sigh. but then again, i wonder how many in the class actually knew? =)

german's fun! Lookin forward to next wk's klasse.

Another piece of gd news, I think i also decided where to hold my party. All thanks to the psycho-ing power of the singh. haha. For that, u shall be the mc of the night. LOL. U still need to look for a partner eh? lol.

P.S. Bro's finally comin back tonight! =)

2009-07-26T01:57:00.000-07:00

o noooo.

Where shld i hold my bday party? Home? Chalet? Or some function room somewhere?

Home is great, accessible and its free but with parents ard...errrr....haha.

Chalet can be pretty easy, probably hold a lot of ppl and can go crazy but its damn common and a little boring?

And i came up with the list of invitees. omg. FAR FAR too many. shit. How to cut down? haha. Guess my mum was right yrs ago. I will hav a huge headache thinking of who to invite when i marry. Well, guess im popular, sociable, out-going...okie i shall stop. =x

Sigh. So difficult to have a great and memorable party.

2009-07-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

Been so busy these couple of weeks. Meet-ups and birthday celebrations. So damn surprised at the amt of july babies are there. omg. haha.

Thinking a lot as well. For my future and further studies. After hearin from monica and drogba, who jus came back from australia for hols, its jus so temptin to join them! I guess i really miss that few mths studyin outside s'pore. Not only that, kaian and dick sounds interested too! Makes the option even more attractive.

Sorta mentioned casually abt it to my parents. Maybe im not considerate or thoughtful enough, but i never saw the kinda reaction that was comin g. My mum was sayin, ' hai. nows your turn. dunno when den we can have reunion dinner with the whole family here?'

Speechless. Just said it was only casual talk and walked away. This really hit me. Thoughts started to fill my mind like never b4. Why didnt i think of this b4 i even approach my parents. Selfishness? Or am i jus clouded by the thought of studyin overseas.

my bro has been gone for abt 2 yrs+ alr. And in this time, my sis got married. Gradually, the house slowly quietened down alot. Which parents dont like to be close with their children? My parents are also not gettin any younger. Sigh. Its not that they are not supportive. I feel they will def let me go if i insist.

But, sometimes.....its not all abt yourself.

Guess i still have plenty to think abt..haha.

2009-07-04T10:53:00.000-07:00

Wanna upgrade myself!

German.
Guitar.
Golf.
SAT test.
Stock market. =)

Seriously thinking abt furthering my studies in Australia after hearing from kai an. Dick's interested too! Would be great if we could go tgt.

Should i go? Should i not?

So many stuffs to think abt nowadays. Damn.

2009-06-26T03:54:00.000-07:00

OMG! First thing in the morning, tuning in class95 like i always do...
Michael Jackson has passed away.
One of my favourite aritist of all times.
Stop harping abt what he did wrong,
what abt he stuffs he has been doing all his life?
Makin great music for the world.
Beat it, Heal the world, Smooth criminal, We are the world, Billie Jean, Thriller, Black or White, Man in the mirror..omg. I think i can go on forever. All fantastic songs, no.1 hits..lol.
Damn. To think he was actually gonna have a final concert soon. Millions of tickets sold out in just hrs. Was still hoping maybe he will come to S'pore. haha.
Im stiil searching the net for a proper video tribute, but dun understand y there isnt one made yet?
I still remember couple of yrs ago, right on the day the news of Eddie Guerrero's death, a video tribute immediately was on the net.
Anyway, gonna get his greatest hits album, hopefully by tml as a tribute to him. U guys should get it too! U wont regret it.

One of my fav mtv. Dunno y. Reminds me when im young, often seeing this on tv, with all the changing faces. Never fails to amuse me. haha. Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyBs6-cmFvQ

Your music will live forever.
Long live the king of pop.

R.I.P Michael Jackson. =(

2009-06-24T22:52:00.000-07:00

Woke up on Monday, but struggled to get out of bed.
Decided to take the morning off, called travis to say im goin only in the afternoon.
Continued sleeping....till a phone call disturbed me. It was travis.

"EH! U not feeling well ar? Listen to this news!
Popular nightclub Butter Factory at One Fullerton has been identified as the third cluster of locally infected cases.
The new case is a 19-year-old Singaporean female student.
She visited the club last Wednesday, when three previously reported cases were also there."

I was there last wed too. U must be joking? I quickly woke up took my temp.
38.3.
omg. Bullseye?

Took a couple of panadols, as frens started to call and msg me.
LOL. Think i told a little too many ppl that i was there. hahaha.
Went to the doc in the afternoon, he checked, my fever went down a little, and thought i had no problem, until just b4 he wanted to send me out....

I declared that i was at butter fact last wed. His expression changed a little, and started to count the days. He gave me 2 days mc and asked me to keep him informed.

On tues mornin, he called to check on me. Responsible eh? haha. He told me to quarantine myself at home, stay away from family, dont even eat on the same table! haha.
On top of that, told me to go down to his clinic the next day, get another mc. =x
I was feelin better thou', just persistent coughing refusing to go away...

So i went down on wed mornin, and guess what? he gave me another day! thats 4 days! lol.

But still, lucky lucky me just managed to dodge the bullet. Coz even if i can take it, my family will have a hard time recoverin from it, esp my mom. And what abt the guys i met on thurs to sat? Theres a hell lot of them i tell ya.

So....whew. Dont worry guys!

2009-06-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

thanks for makin it plain and simple.

All the best.

Time to get drunk!! wooo-hooo!

-scott.lee.j.y.

2009-06-15T02:34:00.000-07:00

Got that certain feeling back.
omg.
What am i suppose to do?!
sigh.

Reply me!! =(

2009-06-14T10:36:00.000-07:00

Mizuno 10km Mt faber run 14th Jun. Met up with the ptis, kirby, wayne, robin, weijie.

Hellava crazy run.

I thought i could slow jog all the way, treat it as a recovery run for my sundown 2 weeks ago.

BUT, no. My knees started to fail me at 3km i think. even before reaching mt faber.

The run up was alrites, but it was the downslope which finished me off.

Its as if im torturing my knees every step i take running the down slope.

Sigh. I guess no more runs for me for at least 3 mths.

Pls dun take my knees away!!

Kbox on sat pics comin up! haha. Great time, but shld hav gotten more pics. Damned.

-jyscottylee

2009-06-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

Butter fact-ed!! hehe. First time over ther yesterday.
28 bucks, free booze and u are set for the night.
Totally rox man!! Think i got overcome by the fact that its free flow of drinks, that i just kept on going..and going...and gone. Damn quickly.
Its the first time im gone in such a short time, simply drank too fast. Felt a little tired, so went over to the smoking room, sat there, and actually fell aslp!! =x
When i woke up, on the way back in, saliva started to form up in my mouth unnaturally. S*^T.
Made a desperate attempt to the toilet, and still had to put up with some guys fooling ard in front of the cubicle.
Merlion-ing followed. haha.
Crazy night, free drinks, girls were plenty. Missin the place alr! =)

2009-05-23T10:39:00.000-07:00

I've made it.
Full-fletched 3rd Sergeant.
PTI Scott Lee.
LOL. Doesnt sound right eh? hahahas.
A new challenge awaits at Naval Diving Unit. Wow.
Although i will be alone, but hopefully i will do well, and succeed as a gd PTI.
As for fitness, IPPT only a pass now, target to get gold by my birthday.
Lastly, I would like to thank everyone for their support, esp. during difficult and stressful times during the course.
And of course, not forgetting my PTI buddies in 91st Basic Fitness Specialist Course, esp. Section 4 successfully all passed out tgt!! YEAH!
Hanging out in the mess, nights out outings, trainin hard tgt, gettin 'tekan' tgt, organisin the telematch and so much more. Unforgettable times. Thanks for the memories!!!

Enjoy the vid! 91st BFSC rox! Spot me if u can =)

P.S. Gotta be somebody who bleed it out to be a PTI and Wherever u will go, u will forever be one.

PTI Lee Jiun Yuen, Scott

2009-05-07T23:48:00.000-07:00

I cant help thinking abt it.
I know i shouldnt. But the images just kept flooding my mind.
The test, esp. the swing trainer. I kept seeing myself clearing it. But y cant i??
I failed the real test yesterday. Damn disappointed.
Lookin at the ppl who passed, congratualting them, and can only look in envy as they collected their 'goodie bags'.
Tried to turn away everytime i see a guy carrying the stuffs, but just cant help hearing wads inside.
the white singlet, white polo t, the wristband rank, 3SG rank, track suit, and a pair of mizuno court shoes.
Some goodie bag yea? haha. and now its just 52mins away from my grasp. Perhaps for me, its just a 'monkey bar' obstacle away.
I really want this. I dun tink i have done my parents too proud in my life so far, initially in BMT thought that i could be an officer, and that could be something. But didnt make the cut in the end.
Went to sispec for the basic section leader course instead, and the pti course came by. I went for the selection, and here i am now. Probably the next best thing besides being an officer, and do my parents a little proud.

I must make it, no matter what. Hopefully on Tuesday. C'mon! C'mon!! C'mon!!!!

2009-04-25T23:22:00.000-07:00

Not been myself probably for the past 2 weeks, due to the tests. Failing one after another.
I kept telling myself i can do this. But results just dont show likewise. Im nowhere close to passing my cpft, struggling with the swing trainer. Worst still, i failed my ippt this week, twice. my sbj just hit free falling state these few weeks, and i dunno wads wrong. Different mates looked at my jump, and all are telling me different stuffs. Whats happening?! Really desperate times now with so little time left to passing out. Just 4 more weeks. Excluding the last week for parade rehearsal, just 3 weeks left provided i even make it to the parade. haiz. i tink i really hit a wall this time and dont have the slightest idea of gettin round it. the sight of seeing ppl improving while im going the other direction is just too much for me.
Sum it off, newcastle lost again. i know.

Guess i need a miracle from somewhere..

2009-03-28T10:30:00.001-07:00

This past week i think has been the most xiong in the pti course.And also the most down and disappointing for me.
I managed to pass my SOC the last time right on the dot 8mins59sec. But this time round, i even failed the swing trainer obstacle, and my timing was 10m44s. abt 2mins deprovement. DAMN.
After the test, bcoz of our lousy no. of passes, we gotta do the obstacles over and over again for 6 times. It was damn shag. No kiddin.
"PRESS ON!!!" our course commander kept shouting.
Thats only one event. Throughout the week, we also had speed trg, circuit trg, weights trg, and top it off, b4 we booked out, one last whack on our body by the instructors for abt 30mins i think.
When i woke up this mornin, i swear to god man. My body wasnt mine. LOL. seriously. I had trouble gettin up la!!
Haiz. But thats not all.
We had assignments to do over the weekends.
One is to get a National coaching cert. Gotta come up with a year training schedule for a athelete on a sport of your choice. Sounds really interesting eh? But damn tedious project. And damn difficult to pass.
Another one is coming up with lesson plans for our teaching tests. We gotta teach particular stuffs for swimming, weights, soc, different trainings. Each exercise = 1 lesson plan. Thats like ALOT la. Nvr tell us earlier. Teach us this week, next week starts. Crazy man.
To top it all off, on monday is another SOC test + SOC endurance training. WAH. Den next week first FBO SOC.
Need I say more? =(

Scotty's goin' crazy...

2009-03-22T01:59:00.000-07:00

Haiz...

2009-03-21T13:01:00.000-07:00

Been watching football for over 10 years now.
Started out supportin everyone's favourite winning team, Man u.
Switched to Newcastle only during my secondary sch days, because of their playing style, culture, the loyal supporters and of coz Shay Given and Alan Shearer. Ever since then, close friends kept makin fun of me, tellin me what a lousy football club it is. But i didnt bother. I wanna be one of those 50,000+ supporters supporting them week in week out even if they lost. I wanna be part of the atmosphere at st james park.
And u know what, i got my dream just last yr. I actually caught a match LIVE at st james park. Against the club i supported as a young boy, man u. Although Newcastle lost 5-1, I didn't care abt the result. I was just glad to be there, proud to be supporting my favourite club. I even bought 2 jerseys, one home team, and another a Shay Given jersey. I was just so damn ecstatic, and just wanted to savour every single second there.
Now, with the club derailed with problem after problem this season, i was really disappointed and felt really sad. I was really upset when Given left, that I told myself I will not watch anymore of their matches for the rest of this season.
But 2day, I watched them play. The 2nd half against Arsenal. They had to win. Already in the relegation zone, they HAD to win. But they sucked. They are going down, for sure. Is it really cursed when I bought the Given jersey, he left immediately the next season? I really hate myself for supporting them now, they suck! Why the hell i supported them in the 1st place? fcukin suck to the core. I feel sick when i see them play. If they get relegated, they deserve it fully. Not by luck, but their own doing. Its just torturing to see them play. In fact, i hope they go down, so they will learn their fcukin lesson and rebuild with a new manager. Totally lost all faith in them and for once embarrassing to be a supporter of Newcastle United.

2009-03-20T11:30:00.000-07:00

Finally managed to stop procrastinating and change the song..haha.
I know its like a freakin old song, but i just got to hear it like few months ago. Slow right? damn.
Anyway, better late than never. I love the part where the song turns rock style. Just turns me on. haha. And i wanna learn the guitar chords for this also la. damn damn nice. Enjoy! ~

When I see your smile, Tears roll down my face
I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's okay, It's okay, It's okay-ay-ay-ay-ay.

Seasons are changing, And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my, you're my, my-e-y-e-y,
My true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here... for you!
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay!

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Stay!
Whoa-oh!

Use me as you will!
Pull my strings just for a thrill!
And I know I'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning grey! (grey! grey! )

I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!

I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven! (continues until fades out)

1 mth down, 2 more to go!!

2009-03-15T00:59:00.000-07:00

Yeaps. 2 more mths to officially becoming a PTI! haha. Really hope i dun Out.Of.Course man. I think i will totally break down.
Spent quite a lot of time in the pool this past week, learning aqua jogging, simply jogging in water. Seriously. haha. Trust me, its not as easy as it looks. LOL.
Fact: Aqua jogging in the pool for 1km is equvilent to 5km on land! Ratio 1:5! Crazy rite? im not gonna run anymore. hahaha. We also started to swim in our uniform w/o boots. I feel like every stroke i take, im being pushed back by the water. Freakin uniform damn heavy. We also managed to try our first jump off the 3m board! Haha.
Gotta cut down on drinking! 3 weekends straight le! Damn. =)

Army Fitness Centre. Physical Training Instructor!!!

2009-02-21T22:50:00.000-08:00

I know. I know. I dun look an inch like one. haha. C'mon gimme some face can? =)

Has really been a crazy 2 weeks, adapting to my new place for the next 3 mths.

We gotta study like human anatomy, and physiology. Which means, like single bone and muscle name, we have to know them. Heard of Latissimus Dorsi, or Tibialis Anterior before? Thats what im talkin abt. Haiz, theory tests next wk!! damn.

Got this feeling, army's drifting me and my parents apart. Every week i book out, i make it a point to spend at least a day in the weekends with them. Even though now without a maid, I still help clean up the house, try to do my own laundry and stuffs without complaints. So of course, its fair that i have the rest of the time to myself agree? These 2 weeks, had been hanging out till quite late drinking and movies, just to take my mind off the regimental stuffs for a while. But, they are still unhappy with me. "I think next friday u might as well dun come back, everytime hang out until so late." At that point in time, i didnt really feel much. But thinkin back, really hurts a lot. Its not as if im not helpin out with anything, its not as if im not accompanying them, its not as if i dun give a heck abt my family. i just wanna enjoy my book out to the fullest. Am I wrong? Do they not understand me at all? Haiz. dunno la. wads the point of booking out when i cant even lay back and relax. The whole house seems so quiet to me now...without my sis, bro and maid around..

Just wanna faster pass out and finally get a better life..probably only then, things will be better...

Scott

no guard duty??

2009-01-04T03:15:00.000-08:00

Argh. Damn *** sometimes. Seriously dunno how they organise stuffs. Plan swee swee on paper, but in reality everything cocks up. Only when duty is abt to start, they start to claim, "wah. so many ppl?" Hear alr so damn stun. Den in the end, "ok. you all may go book out now." Really dunno to be happy or sad. Booked out on sat mornin, went out, booked back in at nite. Den book out sun mornin, book in back at nite again! U tink i stay right beside the camp ar! kaoz.

Somemore i was supposed to go to xueli's 21st bday party chalet AND the judo chalet. BOTH at pasir ris! in the end both also missed. GODammit. Sorry guys!!!

To Xueli. Happy 21st and congrats on reachin adulthood! i owe u a present! =)

Well, at least i really had fun with the pcps guys. Cmon vanessa or mel plan another one soon! Congrats to jiahao on graduating frm australia and gettin your degree! god. How time flies. U are alr a degree holder! haiz. Anyways. Welcome back to S'pore. It really seems like good o' times when the 4 of us shared a table at toa payoh (yea! where it all began! =) ) a hawker centre in lor 5. Our table was like totally filled. Didnt even bother abt the noise lvl we were making. haha.

Great atmosphere, great food, fantastic company. Junyi, mel, jiahao and me. Best buds for life! haha.
O yea. We forgot photos! =(

Happy 2009! Resolutions?

2009-01-01T01:44:00.001-08:00

Another year has passed. 1 yr 9mths to ORD! Haiz. Depressing to hear.

This past year has really been a topsy turvy and fast one for me. Started off the year fantastically, with the overseas exchange in germany. that itself is alr 5 mths off the calendar.
Since comin back, spent abt a mth getting back to reality, and finally settling back down here. Worked for 3 mths after that till sept when i finally got enlisted to the army.
BMT was great fun, and that is another 3 mths off the calendar.
Just 2 weeks ago, got posted to Sispec.

And yups, thats abt it! My 2008 in less than 10 sentences. From Jan to Dec. hahahas. Cool eh? But the highlight is def. the germany trip! Best time of my life. =)

So what awaits me in 2009? Today, i kept thinking. What resolutions should i have? Im like wandering aimlessly now, nothing to look forward to. nothing to be excited abt.

Well, probably this shall be my resolution for this year:

To find my aim in life.

Simple as that.

As for stuffs i want to do/wish for.

1. A slack vocation which is 8-5 and near my house
2. Make a photo album for my germany trip
3. Strike Toto
4. Take up German language
5. Learn to study stock market
6. Take up guitar
7. Occasional golf and bowling sessions
8. Keep in contact with all my friends out there!!

Happy 2009!!!

time to get dirty...and finally be a man!

2008-10-19T03:24:00.000-07:00

Firstly thanks to all greetings! Really appreciate them a lot! hahas. Although i could only celeb it in camp....For those who didnt know, heres how the story goes..

Usin tune of purple light

First book in, I was late
Got punished, for being late
Guard duty, on my birthday
WIth my rifle and my buddy and me

So yeah, I had guard duty the whole day yesterday in camp! Haiz. Quite a depressing way to spend it, but wtf! Its over. Guardin Rocky hill was quite an experience too!

Next week goin for field camp!! As one sir said, Time to get dirty, go thru shit...to be a man! Argh. I guess it will be 6 days of pure HELL then. Really gotta go, so i'll see u guys when im back, if im still in one piece! =)

Happy 20th to me!

Have u ever wondered? Why must we serve?

2008-09-30T22:02:00.000-07:00

Selemat Hari Raya! 2nd book out in a matter of days. How cool is that man! haha.

Army days man. haiz haiz. Everyday lookin' forward to bookin out. The first 2 weeks to be honest, has been long and difficult. Everyday passes quite slowly, with activities lined up for us every hr, every min. And to think these 2 weeks is the 'honeymoon period'. Since bookin in on Sunday nite till yest book out, had alr did 200+ push ups. To further let us know the honeymoon is truly over.

Worst still, i was late for my first book-in on Sunday! By 5mins. Oh wtf. After that, i got to find out, my punishment was guard duty. On a saturday. So i book out on Sun mornin, book in on sun nite. Thats not all. I dragged my buddy down too. But he was cool with it, wasnt angry or anything, still felt damn guilty la. Damn stupid. To top it ALL off, the guard duty was on the saturday 2 weeks later. yups. 18 oct. Some introduction to the army for me. I think i kena blacklisted by my platoon sgt le. Almost everytime tio something from him.

Seriously gotta buck up!!!!!!

Scott

N.S.

2008-09-12T06:54:00.000-07:00

National Slavery awaits me in 10hrs. I dunno what to expect!! o man. Just so sianz. Without my laptop for 2 weeks is just unbearable, i tink. People always say that it will be the best 2 yrs of our lives of somethin, is it really? Im not doubting i wont enjoy, but i just hate the period leading up to it. like NOW. Its just so depressing. And the gatherings these past 2 weeks has been so great. Pics below..

JUDO at Sakura

Me n jere goin in same day, diff time though.

Classic pic. haha. 3 old men. =)

Uncle dennis

K X Lim

FA XP's bday!

After couple of tries.

Soon-to-be NSmen

Happy bday xiaoping! dun so stress le.

Class rep Jf. Still got a mth to go. hahahs..

Ashley! So gonna miss mambo n always meetin u ther!

Sembawang Sec gatherin!

Da Family at hooters!

After MoS. Family 4 life.

NyP frens

Sherry's new cam. hahas..

Group pic.

In dbl o

Finally my hair...*sobs

The front

The side

Alrites. Enough of emo-ing around. Time to face it like a man! lol. haiz. gotta go catch some sleep le guys. Everyone take care! will miss ya. Hope these pics gonna entertain u enough for 2 weeks! wahahhas...

Well...B4 i leave...a little surprise preview for all...ahhahas.

DUN LAUGH ALREADY! =)

Bye! Cya in 2 weeks!

J Y Lee Scott

11 days n countin!

2008-09-01T22:11:00.000-07:00

This week officially starts off as a slackin one for me after 3 mths of hectic and non-stoppin' working! Finally...Well it has been an eventful 3 mths. I guess u can see frm my previous entries yea? haha..Thinkin back, abt the different issues i had at both workplaces, I seriously think im not mature enough yet. No, REALLY!

My day job, immature enough to work for my parents, gettin' angry and irritated easily if i made any mistakes. Cant stand getting scolded or reprimanded when i dont do somethin up to their expectations. Impatient and unwilling to learn. And worse off, turn to drinking after that. When will i finally learn to be mature enough to not be so short-tempered? Instead put my head down to actually offer a real helpin hand to my parents? i wanna change. Really do.

My part-time job, made me realise how slow am i, at picking up new stuffs. How long hav i been workin ther? Since like a yr ago? Although i stopped for quite a while in the middle, I ought to have learnt more and be more experienced. But for example, everytime its a full crowd, i tend to get confused and mess everything up. I always need reminding for everything, and needing help for every drink i make. I guess i would have long gone if we werent that short-handed. Add to that, i have had issues with some ppl ther. Do all these factors point to me being ready for the workin world? Hell no. 101% no. I would not survive a day out there.

So fortunately for me (Or NOT!), there is the National Service. Singapore's very own system to make men serve the country. Dont think there is any other country has anything like this especially comparing the duration of it. 2 years. And they say, army's fun, army will change your life, army is the best 2 yrs of your life whr u dun have to think abt anything. I would like to think that it will truly change me for the better, of coz! haha..Perhaps losing a couple of strands of hair is part of the process of 'maturing' too..hahas...Just wanna enjoy my last 2 weeks, and goin in with a peace of mind.

11 days and countin'!!! =)

New look.

2008-08-25T10:19:00.000-07:00

Gotten quite sick of my old skin, so decided to change to a simple and easy one. Hope u guys liked it! If anybody is still ard, heeeellllllllllooooooo......hahas.

Anyway, I just got back from Tioman! Cool place, just sit back and relax before army calls. Probably my last chance of steppin out of Singapore, before the government locks me up here. haha..Snorkellin', Full body massage + scrub, Amazing dishes, REALLY cheap drinks, MJ =), accompanied by the blue blue sea and fantastic beach. What more can u expect from a holiday? Absouletly awesome! Ahhhh. Guess I'll not get quite a vacation like this in the very near future. Thanks XT, XL, SB for making this happen! Shall post up some pics for your viewing pleasure once i get them =)

2008-08-07T10:05:00.000-07:00

I know. i know. Happy post, yea? It has been ages a less-emo post came up, so....lets see. hmmm. I will just post a video which literally made my week.

"Britain's got talent". Wondered how many of u actually heard of this show before? I seriously think this is like the best reality show ever. It showcases talents. No matter how u look like, it doesnt matter. How great it is if everyone in the world has one talent of its kind, wouldnt that be so cool?

If this doesnt make your day, I dont know what will =) Enjoy! Catch the other performances too if u've got the time. This show really rocks to more than the core.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0X2rbfF1n0&feature=related

2008-07-27T09:49:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

Im blogging once now only every week, not cause I dun hav the time. Hell, I stayed at home the whole weekend, no work, just sleeping and doing nothing. Its jus I dunno what to write anymore. I have nothin to confide anymore. Keepin everythin to myself. Sometimes I always think of what my mum said, I have many friends, lots of them. Too many. But, how many are ........................... ? I shall not talk abt this here. Have no wish to. Im slowly fadin away..to nothin but a nobody.

Past week..

2008-07-20T05:55:00.000-07:00

This past week has been such a torture to go thru..and i tot last week was worst..

My 'bosses' quarrelled over work. Me and my 'colleague' kept quiet. I didnt noe what were they quarrelling abt. They dun tell me anything. Its always the case. One always being stubborn, the other always shouting, always mentioning abt dying, committing suicide, being worked to death, got this illness, what if got stroke. Im seriously sick of it. Has really been a quiet house since then. Perhaps this is why my bro is still not back yet. I feel like getting out of the house all the time, but on the other hand, i dun have the mood to go out. So I tried to make things right. Talked to him alone, but I still could not solve anything. Totally out of my hands. Only thought a lot. Remember the show i was talking abt? "Money can prove to be a blessing, but can also spell disaster." Its always about money, making money for yourself, for your children. But at the expense of happiness in the family, i rather not. I rather you dun think so much for us, or our future. Just enjoy, retire earlier, and a happy family. But, sad to say..its not that simple.

Ich bin trinken...

2008-07-13T06:19:00.000-07:00

Have been drinking a lot this past week. Too much in fact. Even at home, will just pop a tiger and gulp it down.
When i went for football this morning, i got tired so easily, and felt like i lost some agility. hahas..
Drank my week away, thats y it passed so quickly. Another eventful week. Haiz. Wonder u guys have been watching "Tang Xin Feng Bao" on SCV channel 55 lately? Its abt a family, keep quarelling here and ther, over work over everything.
I likened the show to my family currently. Not saying its exactly the same, but alike. Workin for your parents is no mean feat, not as easily as it looks. Always under pressure to NOT to put a foot wrong, to the slightest detail. U get depressed if u do, or even worse, tempers flare. I admit im quite short-tempered at times, esp. while working with your family, tend to flare up even more easily. I cant explain why, its the pressure, or the stress or u are workin for your own money anyway..I really cant pinpoint a particular reason why. And once the argument starts, it is brought back home to dinner, to the next day...Sigh..

我为朋友兩肋插刀,
谁为我 ?

I always help people...
but who will help me??

Leavin..

2008-07-06T11:30:00.000-07:00

Sorry if i angered u.
Sorry if i disappointed u.

Guess I deserve this treatment.

Anyway..heres a nice song.

Leavin' by Jesse, hopefully u'll be able to follow the lyrics below.

No courage, no confidence...

2008-06-30T10:38:00.000-07:00

For once, I wanna do something to help..My long serving domestic helper whos with my family since im like 9 or 10, has been causing trouble while im in germany..Even my dad, gave up on her..I want to talk to her..what happened? wads causing all these..but when the right time finally came, i had no courage to talk to her..I didnt noe how to...I just dun trust myself anymore..I wanna make something right..but just cant..no confidence in doing anything...Seems like i lost something..my life...I lost my life...just an empty shell now...working my time away..........

L.i.F.e

2008-06-25T11:16:00.000-07:00

Whats happening to me?? underperforming at both workplaces..Makin mistake after mistake. Im not angry at anyone..Just at myself. Sometimes although im 'helping' out, am i more of a nuisence than of help? would they be better off without me? At least they are assured of getting it right if they do things by themselves, as she said..Maybe i shld just quit and stay at hm instead of causing trouble to others..

Come to think of it..I really suck at everythin I do. Basketball in pri sch, badminton, football, judo, now work, studies(although i admit im not the most hardworking). Nthg to be proud of. Im really hopeless. I dunno wad to do in my life anymore. Recently this guy auctioned off his life on the internet, hoping to start anew..and got 1+ million dollar bids. im sure mine is worth much less.

And last thing..I wanna mention abt this bunch of con-ners. Money suckers. Whatever u call them. I just wanna say have u ppl not got anything better to do, other than go ard checking here and there, tryin to suck as much money as u can? C'mon everyone knows how rich u ppl are alr..Okie. So u want to check, FINE. Had alr prepared to the smallest detail as to whr the money had gone, u still dun wanna accept, and check till 6-7 yrs back summore..And after that, add up a total LARGE sum of amt. Lemme ask u. Whr is yur conscience. DO u think we can rmb wad happened 6-7 yrs ago? Not to mention small details here and there..There are definitely discripancies..But wad u r tellin us now is u want more than wad we ought to give. DOUBLE of the amount as penalty. Are u out of yur mind? Sick corrupted ******* Anyway, I just hope the time when we decided to give in, u guys can fcuk off and leave us alone.

Military cant come soon enough. ppl say everythin is planned out for u for 2 yrs. prob. these 2 yrs mite be a critical period for me to ponder and think abt my future and life...

Cant take it anymore!!

2008-06-12T10:59:00.000-07:00

y do people cling on to the past so much? Some memories are beautiful, but others are painful as well..regrettin what u did or what u did not..just so difficult..im sorry for what i did not manage to do properly..
I know that its an answer which will disappoint..so wads the point? y do i still cling on? its impossible now...Really cant take this anymore..can i just heck care and come clean, and risk losing it..haiz...

Work work..

2008-06-01T08:27:00.000-07:00

Had been workin so much this past week!! 7 days straight man..how cool is that...totally drained..People ask, chiong so much for what? Seriously, if u ask me, I dunno. really.

Haiz..Its so difficult..hope I had made the right decision and wont regret it in time to come....Sorry.

Graduate...again..

2008-05-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

hahas..second graduation in 1 mth+..Seems like Im more prepared for this one..but still a little disappointed that it did not turn out the way i predicted..
3 yrs just passed us just like that..not to mention 4 mths in germany..This day brought back some memories of the last day the program ended but not as emotional..Dun get me wrong..its was still a sad occasion..leavin all my frenz..but wad was disappointing is that even my own class, only half of them turned up..it mite be the last time we will be meetin in such a big grp, and they couldnt care less..so much for 3 yrs of tgtness and frenship..We dun even have a class photo with everybody in it..I never had one in secondary sch and now even in poly..haiz..but FA is still a great class..great ppl..although troubles were plenty, its all over now..lets forgive and forget yea?
well at least NCG was there so it didnt feel too bad..thank u! Love u guys a lot really..hope that we can keep in contact in the future when we work, when we grow old..Best buds!! Not to forgettin the soccer gang..crazy bunch of ppl..lol..although tep sux, but it brought me this huge bunch of soccer buddies..hahaha..N my cca of coz..judo bros..Da best CCA i have joined in my life..Another huge bunch of bros..Will miss all the crazy trainin sessions over there..
Will miss school life so much! hahas..

Our captain is back!

2008-05-10T13:21:00.000-07:00

Just on thursday..our captain of GHBD FC, got back from France! haha..Its great to see him back..hopefully he will be able to bring GHBD back from the dead..He shared some crazy pics and vids from his side..definitely crazier than ours!! haha...Its great..promise to show you some soon!

Yesterday was great too! Met up with classmates..haha..Mic, shing, xp, matt, kiat and jf! Great, great time..gave out presents, had manhattan dinner and went to ben and jerrys to chill..Mic you are grown skinny la..no kiddin..And jf..yur hair is long just again just like 3 yrs ago..lol..

And today judo outing at last!! Havent seen the guys for so long man..Jere, Subi, Ws, Xy, Ivy, Peh, yz...met at 3+ but in the end bought movie tix for 1140 show! omg..hahas..but had a great time..esp at minds cafe..haha..The games are just cool..BUT we guys played Risk for like abt 3.5 hrs! Dummkopf! hahaha...Played true colors later..to see wat your frens think abt u..haha..What happens in Vegas was great! Real funny..but ending was na ja...nthg special...

Scotty =)

im back...but...

2008-05-03T09:29:00.000-07:00

Hey guys im back! Singapore! As much as i hate that fact...i have to face reality and realize its over..The beautiful dream is over..I cant turn back time...

Once Shachin, Dick and me stepped out of the new Terminal 3 on 1st May abt 1630, I went straight to my family and hugged them...as i was really thankful to my parents for giving me this opportunity..Without them, I dun tink I will even have the chance to be so emotional and all..

So...I wondered how my life will turn out to be after comin back? Even the first night felt weird..for the first time in 4 months stayin so far away from Rikson (Rikki and Dickson)..haha..ok that sounded a little gay...

First day we are back, played some football in sch...but somehow din manage to enjoy it so much..Sorta missed the Jahnhall, which is the Sports hall where we played in Deutschland..

Has been living like a dead man since then, just listenin to music, lookin at photos all day long..then realised that so much happened at home when im not around..My bro and my maid...So much!! Its like from Heaven being hit right straight to hell..

Then, is as if I left all my luck behind in Deutschland, the adapter for charging my labby spoiled, so with my LOW batt life..bottom line I cant use my labby at all..haiz..Not only this, when my dad was coming home, he scratched his car...and on the same night, when I was abt to drive out, I scratched the other car...haiz haiz...Was passiert?!?

Today I went to try to get a new adapter, costs S$160...den to top things all off...becoz my cam's LCD screen cracked in Germany, I went to fix it..I bought it just last nov...only almost half year old and still under warranty...They just told me that I have to pay for it...S$284, after Discount! WTF..Its still only half year old! The person still had the cheek to check my record and tell me, "O..u stay in Springside Ave? Den you still have to think so long meh?" Fcuk off la..Stay there big ar..Stay there den can give u all my money la..alda fresse du fisch kopf! Then came home, told them, kena nag by mum again.."told u not to...U just dun listen..."

haiz...im missin life there so so much alr..carefree...total TOTAL freedom..and not only that...I could actually study in my time there too..but comin back..so many distractions..so many of this..so much of that..I sorta knew why my bro stayed in Japan till now..havin no thoughts of comin back at all...he muz be really enjoyin his life in his own way so much..no restrictions..no worries..just restrain self-control at times and u'll be fine..miss it so so much..

Den, with presentations to director and students comin up, and helpin my parents in their company, trainin for napfa, army...how can I take it? This fast pace life..sux so so much...

I wanna live in Mosbach, though its a small little town, it has everythin u need..quiet, peaceful..no worries, and no ppl in the streets after 6pm..hahaha...

And of coz all the frenz there...I said so many times..but i really miss them so much! haiz..

Scott..

Guess this is goodbye...

2008-04-14T00:18:00.000-07:00

Since January we have been here...I will treasure every moment for it...

Would like to thank all juniors...U definitely left footprints in my life..no doubts abt it..

And I thank u Sascha,

when I was gettin emotional and crying the other night...U told me this wonderful line..

`Dont be sad its over, be happy beause its beautiful..´

Thanks man.

But it didnt work. Coz I think I cried even harder...hahas..

And to Helen Silvia and Beatrice for this German saying..

`We will always meet twice in life!´

I certainly hope so..

I will remember it forever...Juniors 2008 4 LiFe!

Scott

Last 5 days in Mosbach..

2008-04-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

It is now almost impossible i tink..to give up and move on? After so long...Ich weiss nicht...haiz..

On sunday, when me n rickson(rikki and dickson) are studyin for our exams on the next day, dick got emo'ed and kept sayin we are left with a week, and play "leaving" or "goodbye" songs..
We could not study at all..haiz..we came so far..I feel so at home here..we kept sayin 2 more months will be perfect..but will it? I dun tink anytime will make any diff..It is too precious to be measured by time..
Will we ever meet our class again?

The Germans who came to London with us?
Sylvia, Helen and Beatrice
The German version of Xp, Mic, Shing?
Felicitas, Lisa Durr and Anna
The Claudia Schiffer of our class and her best friend?
Tina and Melanie
The most attentive in class?
Lisa Hartmann
The best friends?
Nadja and Stefanie
The friendly horse expert?
Nadine
The ever enthusiastic and course speaker?
Janina
The German monsters!?
Frank, Sascha, Stephan
The Guitarist?
Andreas

And of coz the internationale!
Slovenians!
Feat. Jernej "Beer king" Jerman and Tjasa "Master Chef" Pavli
French!
Feat. David "Junkie" Humbert, Romain "Dancer" Bosio, Maeva "Schoko-Bons" Levy and Maud "Dennis" Bouquet!!
Russian!
One and only Ekaterina "Little Ms Devil" Bolsunnn!!

Not forgetting the others who are not in the Business class...
French again!
Feat. Joseph "The Clown, Joker, DOINK" Turan, "Accident driver" Lillian, "Wow player" Francios and "Prisoner" David
Georgian!
"Solo samba king" Jakob!
The Germans!
"TALL, Multinational" Christina and "Party Machine" Natalia!

There are so many...so many...that I left out...I just know it...

Scott...

Jumping in Paris and Berlin

2008-04-02T04:19:00.000-07:00

BERLIN

Bday day Joseph!

Schon Geburtstag Joseph!
After a longgg nite of party in Berlin

One of meeting rooms in German Chancellor Angela Merkel's office..SERIOUS!
Mexican "Desperados" Tequila with Beer..NICE..

Schweinshaxe/Pork Knuckle/Pig Trotters
Can I really do it?
Finally finished...
But im finished =)
Berlin wall
Jumping ard the world..
Guess who?
At an Irish pub

PARIS

Typical french restaurant

Muacks Nejc..

Heavy la..

La Defense...

Musee de Lourve..

2 capitals in 10 days!

2008-04-02T02:26:00.000-07:00

It has been a crazy, topsy-turvy, blinding more than half a month of march..starting on the 8th...

When I wrote out what exactly we did, I had something to write every single day..

So here goes..

8th and 9th Mar

Party at a bar as it was Fang Shuai's Bday on the 9th!

10th Mar

A visit to Audi factory and production line..the new R8!! The boot is in front, engine at the back..haha

12th Mar

Pow-wow presentation!! Go see the vids in youtube! haha...So surprised that quite a lot of ppl knows abt it alr though..

14th Mar

Had Law exam + Party at David's (guy from Lyon, France) house! He has such a fantastic house la...so damn cosy, private toilet, nice rooms...omg..

15th Mar

Party again at Heidelberg! The Internationale with some Germans, one of greatest parties of all times!

17th Mar

Internationale Buffet at my place! German, French, Slovenian, Singaporean, Russian food....Everybody ate and drunk till their hearts content...played some games too! hahahha...cool nite!

19th Mar

Bowling with our whole class with Econs lecturer Robin Gowers! One of very few class outings...rox to da core!

"Let's go Robin, Let's go!!"

"One Robin Gowers, Theres only one Robin Gowers, one Robin Gowwwweeerrsss, theres only one Robin Gowers!"

Hes a liverpool fan though....shisse...And he predicted Newcastle might be relegated! ARGHHH!!

Unforgettable...He made Econs so interesting...Turned out to be my fav module so far here...And to think it was my least fav mod when i came here..haha..what a turnaround..

20th Mar

Okie...this is crazy...before lunch our slovenian fren rushed home as he had to rush for a train and a bus to Paris for the long weekend...We had nothing in mind yet...ANd after lunch...we still could not come to a decision where to go..

As walking back to school, I told the guys, if i had known, I would have followed Nejc to Paris! Den FS said you still have 20-30mins, still can make it?!

Den i looked at Dick, and we made the craziest decision in my whole life..We called Nejc and told me we are going! We rushed back to school packed our stuff ran back home packed our stuffs and to the train station. So much happened once we got on the train, its just cannot be described in words..So we were off to Paris till 24th Mar..

25th Mar

Its snowing in Mosbach! and heavy snow at last! haha...Its so different...the roof of the houses..and we had our first snowball fight! haha..fun la! but 4 Sporeans guys vs 1 Slovenian guy..guess who won? Slovenian! Unbelievable...

26th Mar

Economics exam in the morning!! Didnt sleep much at all the day b4..and after the exam guess wad? trip to BERLIN till 30th...with the class! Its really fun, great parties...and the craziest nite in our time here...bet everyone will agree...hahhaa...

So now...we are back in Mosbach, finally able to take a deep breath...after an eventful march..anybody disagrees? haha...

I really dun wanna go back....Im afraid that I will be homesick when I go back..I will be so lost when i go back....I will be so...i dunno....I....I....nvm...

Jus wanna treasure my remaining time here..with all my frenz from all over the world...

Scott

pow-wow presentation vids

2008-03-18T03:50:00.000-07:00

GUYS...its up! give us some support, go take a look yeah? Leave some comments too! Deeply appreciated....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCitYr96WKU

This is the 1st part, take note there are 11 parts altogether..haha..Enjoy!

Scott

the past 2 weeks..

2008-03-16T10:35:00.000-07:00

Audi factory at Neckarsulm, Germany
The new Audi R8! Awesome..127,000euros..
and thats the engine..no kiddin'
The boot is in front! haha..
Look at the max. spd..

A pic for bro...this is the jacket i was tellin you abt..n its actually snowing,

but i dun tink u guys can c though..haha..

Can u guess what is it?? Bak Kut Teh!!!! wahahahas...
Another one for bro, Becks barrel..I will ask whether can send u anot..
Wait for my good news..hehe..

Guess wad again? Hainanese chicken rice!!!
Our law teacher, Mrs Janet Hale from Austin, Texas!
Hope you like our curry! haha..

It has been LAW for the past 2 weeks! LAWWW...hahas..and of course fun as well..lols..

And this week we are starting with Economics..I tink i had a good first day, our professor,

Dr Robin Gowers, has never made econs so interesting! haha..cant believe im actually following his classes quite closely..lol..

He is from England and supports liverpool (scheisse!)

but the good thing is he promised to gimme +10marks to pity me bcoz of Newcastle's plight now..

LOL..

So we also had this pow-wow presentation last week...where everyone in our class presentsabout their own country to everyone, and prepare some local delicacies..

We prepared Buk Kut Teh and Chicken curry!!! And I think everyone loved it! Whew....hahaha..

We also did a song (Home, of coz..haha), presentation and skit! haha..i tink its funny..

I will upload the vids on youtube..so guys check it out! haha..

Less than a month left!! Haiz..sianz...I think i will really tear when i leave this place and everyone here...Really havin' the time of my life..

Scott

pics from barca!

2008-03-09T07:46:00.000-07:00

Retro glasses

One of my favs..a guy frm england, some poland, italians, slovenians and Singaporeans!

Hard Rock Barca

Nachos at Hard Rock Barca!

Spiral stairs at Sagrada..

grp foto

Sangredia. Spanish wine..its a fruity wine!!

La Sagrada Familie

stupid..hahas..

Ronaldinho

Spanish paella (Pan fried rice)
Biggest stadium in Europe (Nou Camp)

Tix

Restaurant

Lamb

A set meal which includes wine, appetizier, main course and dessert!

Oh..as requested by the guys....

Shachin - Scott! We gotta go to the Barcelona shop alr! Not much time left!

(Right across the shop)

Scott - How can I leave??!! He(Fang) just found a $4 shoe!!

Haha..and everyone got attracted to this particular section of the shop....LOL..

New-Lon-Barc

2008-03-07T09:29:00.000-08:00

Just a classic pic..my fav..haha

Livin the dream...

hey guys

back from london and barca! haha..it has been quite a crazy week from start to end..I really dunno whr to start..

It is a trip which consists of germans, singaporeans, slovenians and supposingly a russian..but bcoz of some Schengen visa issue, she was stopped when checkin in..So she had to go back alone..damn damn pissed off man..haiz..

Den we made our way to london and straight to Newcastle for our match! Crazy bunch of ppl..haha..although they lost 5-1...but still enjoyed myself..the atmosphere and all...is o....m...g...

Reached London the next day...and of coz sightseeing followed in the next few days..haha..

Barcelona was our next destination!! That place i tink holds more memories for me..its a crazy crazy place..

First nite, we went to the Nou Camp!! Barca vs Valencia...OMG..the stadium is HUGE! Cheering nonstop man...till the last minute equaliser!! haha...within 5 days..2 matches..in 2 different cities..i noe i noe...crazy yes..

We ate great food, at reasonable prices, had wine like for every meal, and late nights...haha..

the shopping is in-credible. a pair of shoes from zara 4 euros = S$8.

a shirt from zara 2 euros = S$4.

But we oso experienced some out-of-the-world stuffs man..Whores all over the streets at nite..in GANGS! They will just gang up on u and start to touch u all over..just crazy..

And worst...we experienced a real-life theft right across the street..That pickpocket stole something from a bunch of gals..and the whole grp chased after him shouting and screaming..we were like just stunned and could only look from the opposite..the guy ran to an alley..and rode on a bicycle..and..i guess thats just that..

And C'mon..the toilets in the hostels are unisex!! =)

Its Fang's, otherwise known as Fang Shuai, bday 2day!! Happy Bday dude! Its the start of something new..may all the bad luck gets washed away...and just start everythin afresh!! by completing yur law paper first...wahahahs..But hope u liked the celebration we had for you last nite!

And guys..how many of u noe of any teachers, lecturers, professors go to parties, drinking and even CLUBBING with students?!! haha..i bet not many..or not even one...wahahs..

Let me introduce, Dr Hubert Speth.

He treats us to pubs now and then, went for fang's bday yesterday and actually DANCED. C'mon! haha..He's just cool..C-O-O-L. And guess wad..Hes goin soccer with us next tues! Crazy...

So i guess thats abt all...coz I gotta go work on my law paper! I dun wanna get screwed by the lawyer from Texas...She will talk law to me all day usin her strong texas accent till i die man....hahahahas..

Really missin u guys and Singapore (REALLY LA!!)

Take care!!

Last day of the new yr...

2008-02-21T02:07:00.000-08:00

Its the last day of the lunar new yr! So a last greeting to everyone out there,

Xing Nian Kuai Le!!

Haha..hope everyone had a great new yr, had lotsa goodies, gaining some weight and of coz a rich 'harvest', if ya noe wad i mean. =)

This past week has been quite hectic for me..startin from the last, our module was IT. We had to write an article, as in literally an article, if you dunno wad i mean, check this out..

http://ceodaily.wordpress.com/

Read the first article, "Usability and Joy of use" and find out who are the authors..haha..The whole article in one single week!! Incredible, i think. haha..

And Sascha(Our german teammate) is so pissed off with dickson's singing!! wahahhahas..unforgettable..

"Dickson!! Dun get on my nerves, you noe!" LOL..his most frequently used phrase in the whole week!

Although its a tough week, but we managed to write a whole article and learnt lotsa stuffs! If you want to noe more, den read the article! wahahahs..

Den on Monday, we had our IB and IF exams TOGETHER. Can u imagine our weekends..hahas..stayin in Mosbach for the weekends for the first time since we are here..Studying till 4am on sat and even sun...its really crazy..juz really glad that its over..hope i din do too badly..

This week we are having Organizations! A lecturer all the way from America..first impression is...an old lady. OMG..

But turns out to be good! Whew...Although she's old, but she sounds young, she acts young, shes young within! We have no communication gaps at all..so its cool attendin her lessons..But of coz im lookin forward to tml as we will be....

GOING TO LONDON!!!! and of coz St james park tis sat!!!

Can u believe it?! Newcastle vs Man U this sat..try to catch me on tv maybe? lols..and after london for 4 nites, and the nxt stop, barcelona!

And guess wad..

Another match!! Barca vs Valencia!! Its gonna be a crazy week...

okie..shall end here..needa go wash some clothes!! wahahahas..Take care guys!

Hong what? METZINGEN!!!

2008-02-13T19:06:00.001-08:00

Who says HK is the shopping paradise..Its METZINGEN! Small town in germany, not so big a population, not much sightseeing, BUT a SHOPPING CITY...I really cant find any words to describe it..just a figure.
I spent 378 Euros in 1 n a half day i that city. It is equivalent to S$700+. And this amount only refers to spendings on my own! Not full amt...omg omg omg...

Visit the webby yourself..www.outletcity-metzingen.com

But Dick is legend. Total spendings - Exactly 926.15 Euros. Do the math yourself.

I can't do it.

Pictures to follow a few days later coz of a particular IT project, which is writing an english journal, we have to submit by end of this wk..

But in the meantime, you might enjoy this.... =)

Arghhh..failure at the end...Who laughed?! WHO?!

btw this was took at abt 3+ am..So we were just workin out the stress of projs ya noe...

O and one more thing..Scheonen Valentinestag!! Ich Vermisse jedermann!!

Bis Spater~~

to love....or to be loved...

2008-02-10T09:30:00.000-08:00

To love...or to be loved....I really dunno....really..

die Bilders 2 in stuttgart!

2008-02-07T06:08:00.000-08:00

Mercs Sports car

Mercs Museum

Take 3

Take 4

Take 5

Take 6

Take 7

Take 8

Take 9

Im missin take 1 & 2!!!!! Whoever has it, i will HUNT u down.

Meanwhile enjoy the rest first!! =)

die Bilders

2008-02-07T05:28:00.000-08:00

Singaporeans with Prof. Michael Akerib,

a long distant relative of David Marshall

Living room! As you can see, our laundry's all over the place =)

Toilet in a typical ghost movie..REALLY.

Our bedroom! Mine on the left and Fang's on the right

If you smellll what the Fang is cookin'!

Cookin''

Looks good eh? U dun wanna noe whats inside... =)Our masterpieces...wahaha..left's mine, right's fang's.

First meal we 'tried' to cook..haha

Xing Nian Dao!!

2008-02-07T02:03:00.001-08:00

hey guys im back! I promise i will try to blog as many times as i can la..haha..

Its CNY!!!
Xing Nian Kuai Le
Gong Xi Fa Cai
Xue Yue Jing Bu
Shen Ti Jian Kang
Nian Nian You Yu
Bu Bu Gao Sheng
Happy New Year!!!

Haha...the six of us with our 2 slovenian friends, Nejc and Tjasa, went to a Chinese-Vietnam restaurant for our reunion dinner..and I tell u...It is the most satisfying, most delicious, most awesome, most incredible MEAL I had since comin here..NO JOKE.
We had all kinds of meat, Fish, Chicken, Pork, Beef, Duck, Prawns, Vegetables..haha..Almost all kinds of meats huhx..LOL..And we had some soup b4 that too! This is the first time we really did not bother about the prices, coz its like 9.50Euros(S$19) per dish, and its actually quite small..
But most important thing, RICE. We ate at least 5 huge bowls of rice with all the gravy and meat..and I almost teared while im eating, best rice i've eaten in a month!
After the scrumptious dinner, the person in charge of this program Prof. Hubert Speth invited us students to a drink in a bar!
A Professor and students sitting around a table drinking! hahaha...incredible. And he actually treated all of us. OMG. Each of us like ordered at least 3 cups per person and there were at least 13 of us there! Thank you Prof. Speth! We promise to bring you to the Chinese restaurant for a meal!! =)

Pictures to follow...

Bis Spater!

Photos and Vids

2008-01-29T09:36:00.000-08:00

Ermm..On top of the Chrisian 'The Butcher' Zeller!!

With Kirsten at the party, shes one of the exchange students at nyp

Internationals!!! Hailing from France, Slovenia and Singapore!!

Ekatherina from Russia is missin =)

First few days in Frankfurt at the Youth Hostel

Juz look at the price. Need I say more?

haha..really hope you guys enjoyed this!

lol..International Biz was fine as usual..but we have done case studies on the car industry for 2 straight days!! Its so different from singapore, that the teacher gave us so much and expect so much in a few hrs!
whew...We had to like come out with a report normally done in weeks in singapore, but in a few hrs here!
And immediately we finished one, we received another. OMG.
The case studies are like such, we get a whole article, and theres this qn, "Suggest a global strategy for this company." OMG.
The article is like 7 pages long and one line question. WoW.
However, we still managed to scrape thru? haha..tml will be results day! dun tink we did quite well..My grp consists of Dick, Fang, and 2 other French students..haha...starting to tink its a little high level for us..dunno y..Hopefully we will manage..
Okay..u guys enjoy the fotos and the vid(I literally rolled on the floor when i videoed this k..No joke!) haha..take care!!

Tschus! Bis Spater ~!

Crazy nite..

2008-01-24T01:24:00.000-08:00

Now its 10.25am in the mornin..and im strugglin a little in class coz of a little *hangover* from last nite, as me, Singh, Estee and Pat went for a costume party!! I still managed to stay awake though..hopefully will last thru out the day...haha..Really a crazy nite...Come to tink of it, i almost slp alr when Estee called, and said Christian(her landlord) kept callin her askin her to go..so i got a shock when she called me at 11pm!! when Mosbach has alr became a ghost town..haha..
So we went...to a small pub and looked quiet from the outside..Christian was in a butcher costume with blood all over came to receive us in the streets..it was 15euros for guys and 10euros for gals..And drink-as-much-as-u-can. haha..Once we entered, its like a total different world! Almost everyone was in costumes! Den the drinking starts...shots and beers kept on comin...We intro'ed ourselves to alot of them in which by now i dun rmb half of their names =)
Met Kristine or Kristian, not sure of the spelling..n she was in nyp few mths ago too! Such coincidence..anyone noe her in your tutorials or lectures? I can help u say hi :D Promise to post some pics later..Bis spater! (See you later! Not sure abt spelling..)

Update...

2008-01-23T10:09:00.000-08:00

Done up my blog a little..Okay ba i guess..at least its better than last time...haha..I shall continue maybe in tml's Internation Biz class..haha..gotta rush project now..Cheap Labor as a Driver in Int'l Trade. Argue whether its true? I guess...haha...
Tschus! Bist Morgen!

First post all the way from Deutschland!!

2008-01-20T03:28:00.000-08:00

Hallo guys its me!! haha...Had no time to blog these 2 weeks coz i dun have internet access at home..So gotta come to dicks n singhs house den can use..

It has been the 2 weeks since we left, and we are enjoyin every single bit of it! haha..First 2 nights in Frankfurt, den gettin to know the guys from other countries in the first week..They are from Slovenia, France and Russia...i will post up some pics..dun worry..so u guys can see some of the handsome and chio gals in my claz..lol..The food here..Kebab..Not forgettin bratwurst of coz..Damn POWER!! Gettin fat le..die die die.AND BIER..OMG..Cheaper than Mineral water..No Jokin...When we see the price of the beer we got a total shock..Average bottle of beer costs less than 1 euro! which means S$1 plus!!! How many times is it more than in Singapore? We went clubbing last week and got in free because its students nite every thursday, and we spent like 2 euros for the whole nite on a couple of beers. S$4. Unbelievable. hahaha...

Pei Chun frenz and cousin on 6th Jan

My family!! Bro missin though..

My beloved class FA!!

JUDOKAS!!!!

GHBD FC!! Soccer mates..hahas..Whrs the capt?!?

My first breakfast in Frankfurt..Ham, cheese, bread, cornflakes, coffee, and orange juice.

O mans...There are juz so many photos!! haha..to be continued in the nxt post....